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After I wrote Phil a love letter, I woke up the next morning to find this in my e-mail inbox. It made me cry, in a good way.
I love my husband so much. More than anything.
Dear Lamb Shanks,
I cannot believe it has only been one year!
It feels like we have been through so much together already... I think it feels like we have, because we actually have, and you know what? I still love you more and more each day.
I remember after we began chatting again in 2009, I was washing the dishes at Simon and Lydia's (Simon was drying). I was trying to figure out if my feelings for you could have the longevity required for spending a lifetime together. It was then that I realized that each time we chatted, each time we talked, each time you typed me an e-mail, and even each time I thought of you, I loved you a little more than the time previous. The more I knew of you, the more I loved you.
Having Audrey is a real test for me, and I feel like I could be dealing with it better. But you, you are absolutely incredible! Your have a commitment and patience I could only dream of. In the wee hours of the morning, when you have to walk with the mad and sad girl out of our room, I am amazed to hear you chirp to her, "Hello, my sweet thing!" or something to that effect. Your love for her is so easy to see, and I can only hope to be as good a Papa one day to our children, as you are a Mama.
And through it all: through the pain of labor, the hardship of recovery, the lack of sleep, the crying, the hormones, etc. your love and commitment to me shine through always as clear as day.
I count myself the most blessed to have you as a part of my life.
Thank you for loving me. You are certainly the best one.
Love of loves,