I can't believe how fast this is going!
I feel like my pregnancy is flying by! I'm afraid that if I blink baby will be here and my life forever changed. I'm savoring the last moments before our world is turned upside down by a sweet tiny new life in our arms.
I'm slowly getting over the nausea but there are still times when I feel like I haven't made any progress at all. Like the other night when Phil just wanted to heat up a hamburger and I almost threw up everything I ever ate. (Sorry, Love.) I just closed the door to the kitchen and sat in the hallway and cried. It wasn't pretty. But there are other moments when I feel great and I start to forget that I was ever nauseous (almost). I feel pretty human again. Right now I feel like a million bucks!
My clothes are already fitting tighter. I can't wear any of my pretty high waisted skirts because the baby bump is too small to look cute and too big to hide, so I just end up looking fat. It's weird. I feel like I've already gained a million pounds! I feel like a monster, but yesterday I weighed myself and I'm only 114. I've only gained 4 pounds this entire pregnancy. You've got to be kidding me. My tummy looks huge. My sister laughs at me and says, "Oooh just you wait." (She is 33 weeks pregnant.) Ack.
What I'm craving: Oddly enough... Lemons!! I hate sour stuff!! I can't staaaand sour stuff! I get goosebumps just thinking about sour stuff or watching someone eat something sour. Well... I did hate sour stuff, but now I can't get enough lemons. I think they are amazing! When I go out I keep a small tupperware container of sliced lemons. When I'm home I have a plate of them next to me all day. I can't get enough lemons. Weird, right?! I told my sister of my strange (and only) craving and it's the only craving she had too. It must be in our genes.
We heard the baby's heartbeat yesterday and it was magical! It was a moment of pure relief for me. A wave of relief just washed over me as we heard the strong, steady, quick heartbeat of our little Bean. I had a sonogram very early on, about six weeks in, because I had some bleeding and we assumed we were losing the Bean. The baby was fine at the time, but I haven't seen or heard from the little one since, so I've been very nervous to hear the heartbeat. It was so reassuring. Our little one is going strong! So amazing, hey? What a miracle.